I find it interesting that when i have a chance to rambel about myself, The truth comes out.. What i maen by this is this morning i was discribing my life a little to someone on this site, and as i reread what i had said, i had talked about failing my kids. WOW, its not something i think about. But its my biggest fear. We all know that the more we have to offer our chilren the more of a chance they have as productive adults. I was a child that was never interduced to anything, no sports, or extra activities. So i grew up with no intrest, or goals. I never had someone push me to be grat at anything. So yes, i fear my children growing up and being like me, as i know im a great parent, and i put them first, but cant offer a wide range of experiences to excite them and get them to thinking about what all is out there in life for them. Last year i had my 2 younger sons in baseball. I dont sugjest doing that with 2 at the same time. Loved that they were on a team and learned how it is to be apart of that, but the cost was over the top. and it really took the gas out my car, and food off the table. I now recently put my 10 year old in boxing. He has a hard time dealing with his feeling, and has a learning disablity. He really needed an outlet. Seems not fair to other kids, but as parents we have to deciede what is best, and within our means. Im not sure how long i can pay, but i hope to have himthere for a long time. My point is i fear not doing well in school, keeping the lights on.. Thats why its good to listen to people. we discover our issues/fears
